Subliminal Retreat~

I am not happy today... so take a walk with me in Central Park... and hopefully I'll be out of this emotional maelstrom soon enough to be able to concentrate on my studies.


Don't know if you've ever had an experience where you try hard to get along with someone that has brought destructive impact to your life without that person knowing how deeply and badly his/her deeds have influenced you...
You can't turn your back on that person for you're intimately related...(related by blood in my case)..... but just when you thought you've convalesced, and that you can finally transform all those negativity into positive energy, that person's never-changed personality and mindset hurt you again, pushing you back in a chaos once again.
Just when you were dashing out from the darkness, the shadow came haunting you again.
Old scar becomes new wound and who knows if it'll ever recover.





I know I am being vague but..... there are just so many things...that're not ready to be exposed...

but I do think that if these stories in my family and my observations could make a good movie if I make a script about them one day... lol





There are some people with whom you should be close to but just can't no matter how hard you try.




I don't know...
I can't say that I've never hated you... but I am really trying to look at your lovely sides...





You're still indispensable in my life, wish you good health and long life so we still may have enough time to amend our relationship...



I forgive even though I know I won't forget....because what's done is done .... no one can obliterate history...
I've been badly affected but I think I should be alright ...... as long as you don't exasperate the situation and salt my wound.



yeah~ I'll be fine